I went to six flags last summer, and I remember thinking while I was there that that day was the best day ever. It was fun, exciting, scary and amazing. I felt fabulous and that I lived life to the fullest that day. Every day should be like that.
Hola Fans, So…
I’ve been a little absent lately from my blog, obviously
And its probably because I have had absolutely nothing interesting to say at all, nothing uplifting no words of advice, nothing! But I would like that to change. I was trying to keep the tone of this blog super upbeat and like yay life but sometimes shit just sucks haha, nothing in particular for me, but on my quest to live life perfect, there is obviously going to be imperfections.
Recently I cleaned out my room, which for me always reawakens new energy and makes me feel lighter and more refreshed. Getting rid of old clothes that don’t make me feel fabulous, finally throwing away all those papers that are just sitting there, getting things organized and letting the energy of your room really flow, which in turn helps to stimulate the mind.
That being said, aside from working quite a bit I have been doing nothing towards reaching any goals I may have. But I have new motivation from a few different sources.
Dancing with the stars: Cheri Sheppard (spelling idk) recently got kicked off, (sorry spoiler) and she was clearly upset, but so happy that she took the chance of being on the show and she said something like, “Whatever your afraid of, run towards it because it feels so amazing on the other side” Me being the me that I am, was like “ohhh well I am not afraid of anythingggg soo it’s all good, I have nothing to run towards” Upon further investigation, I discovered I am quite the scaredy cat about a few things.
I can’t think of more at the moment but you get the idea. I am so afraid I think of being myself because maybe I am not sure who that person is. I don’t know where or how I find her, I guess its a journey thing. Another source of discovery was while I was cleaning I found this school years memory book, where you answer these questions for each year of grade school. Senior year it asked, Whats next? And I said, “I want to find myself” ummm, GREAT JOB LADY! Its been what, 7 (OMG 7) years since I graduated and I still haven’t gotten myself figured out. I need to learn to stand by what I think, and to not care what others think. First I have to figure out what I think hah.
A good friend from college, picked up and moved the Los Angeles one day and has been living there for some time. I don’t get to see him often but he was visiting and we got to see each other for a while, as well as some other friends from community college, who I grew very close with. It was so refreshing to be around people that I haven’t seen in almost 2 years and have it feel like we saw each other last week. It was just glorious to know that some friends to make for life, even if you never see them. But back to LA, he moved out there to pursue acting and has been doing pretty well for himself. Sometimes I sit and think, I CAN DO THAT! I can go to LA I can I can! And ya know what, perhaps I will. He really inspired me to get out of my comfort zone that I am soooooo stuck in right now. I am EXTREMELY comfortable, and I think it scares me more now to stay the way I am then to break free.
I am really going to try and remember that, and stay motivated. I am so afraid that when I try to have the life I want that I will fail, and at this point I am not even trying and for sure failing. So wish me luck ha, We’ll see what happens!
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